I am still struggling to find myself back and not to compare my grown up phase with anyone else

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I genuinely spent my energy so hard until I thought that I didn’t enjoy it, really. Losing my whole free time and filling it with toxic productivity really got me losing myself. I realized that I was pleasing people when I didn’t please my own self. I hope I can take back my words when I said, “I need to get my time faster because adulting is fun.” No, being an adult is tough. But that’s the moral of journey. Sometimes living is not that fun but you still can laugh. I am minding if I want to get successful, so I must be out of the comfortness. But then, I should try not to avoid my happiness.


I have felt so lost

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Wondering where do I go next ? What do I want to do ? What am I good at (feels like nothing)? Can I do something? Anything ? All these different questions and I have not one answer. I have felt so empty and so unsuccessful this past year. My husband and kids are wonderful , but I want to be better for them . Honestly I feel if I’m successful in whatever I can do , I can fine some kind of inner peace and finally be the mom I’m trying so desperately to be. So I came here. To start something new, something different, something I enjoy. However I am a little nervous 💜 wish me luck in finding , ME 💜💗