I am still struggling to find myself back and not to compare my grown up phase with anyone else

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I genuinely spent my energy so hard until I thought that I didn’t enjoy it, really. Losing my whole free time and filling it with toxic productivity really got me losing myself. I realized that I was pleasing people when I didn’t please my own self. I hope I can take back my words when I said, “I need to get my time faster because adulting is fun.” No, being an adult is tough. But that’s the moral of journey. Sometimes living is not that fun but you still can laugh. I am minding if I want to get successful, so I must be out of the comfortness. But then, I should try not to avoid my happiness.


I think my life would be in shambles if I don’t have my planner with me

Keywords: life , thoughts

I don’t know if it’s weird, but I really enjoy writing in my planner- or just simply planning. Aside from the benefits I’m experiencing, I think it just helps me to feel like I am in control. Like I have everything in my life under control. I don’t like if everything is hectic, messy, and out of control. It’d make me feel uncapable and weak.


I am comfortable with myself as much as society lets anyone be

Keywords: rambles , introduction , identity , ramble on

I have a lot of things I like to do, I am a “Jill of all Trades, Mistress of None”. I have lists of things I want to try, and I have crossed off a few. Some I have disliked (jumping out of perfectly good airplanes for fun) and not done again, and others I have enjoyed and continue to do. The lists get longer every time I look at them. I do like lists.